I bet you didn't know I write songs.
Okay well maybe you did. I've only posted like two on my other blog because it takes me a while to put certain things in writing. I really should raid my room and just type up all the old songs I find (And maybe edit some a bit?...)
Anyways. New song.
http://writinggravityaway.blogspot.com/2009/03/comprehensible-can-any-of-you.html
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I'll find you in the ashes that remain
'Cause I'm burnin'
Yeah, I'm burnin'
And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames
So I'll stay here
'Till this smoke clears
And I'll find you in the ashes that remain
Used to be that I could say
My faith was one arm's length away
From any flame that ever felt too warm
Asked for matches, but I recieved
A gallon full of gasoline
Now my cozy campfire days are gone
Burnin'-Nichole Nordeman
Oh dear. 5 days since my last post. We must fix this.
Not that my life is crazy-it just takes interesting turns.
Last night I went with my mom downtown. My dad does plane models for a hobby and has this monthly meeting.
So me and mom went and shopped at goodwill for 10 minutes before it closed.
I found the cutest belt and a bag to use for when I go to the beach this summer. the one I use daily-No. I don't want sand in that one. and then we found Padres stuff. So I technically have two new shirts. And a baseball cap. aha.
And then I was able to practice driving around a mostly empty parking lot for a good hour. Even practiced parking. Turns out-pretty good at it. But I dunno, it was empty.
It was funny-these two guys wanted to skateboard and like kept watching me everytime I drove in a circle around the lot and up and down the lanes.
And then we stopped by Jeck in th Box so i could ge those mini-churro thing's. omogosh love em. my sweet tooth has been aching and not eating chocalote is like torture to it. But its good for me.
And then today. See-my and a couple of my friends have not been on best terms. So they picked me up and we went to a friend's house. the couple that runs our college group. And the wife sat down with us and acted as a mediator and we took turns talking about things are bugging us and all that.
We came to an understanding and middle ground.
It was hard. I felt like my voice would break but we all got a lot from it. Lately I've felt like crying from being hurt but today I coul cry from relief. Like a weight has been lifted you know?
Other than that-I'm super-excited for tomorrow. I play cello in worship. It feels big to me because this will be the last time for who knows how long.
Next month I start teaching Children's Church (6-11 yr olds). I'm excited, but nervous. I know its gonna be fun.
And the months I'm off I'll be doubling up on doing media. Taking a break from worship team. I feel like a break and am not too excited about trying to work it out with a new mucis pastor that is coming in next month. *sigh*
Whatever.
Just have to trust God on it.
And then later I'm doing some yard work to work towards a cruise I'm going on with my college group in May. Woot!
And then a Big Daddy Weave concert.
Crazy weekend right?
Right now, I'm filling out this application for this store. ah I need a job. And to do stuff this week.
I need serious motivation.
I'm praying that I get done what i need to.
Anyways. Bed soon.
Yeah, I'm burnin'
And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames
So I'll stay here
'Till this smoke clears
And I'll find you in the ashes that remain
Used to be that I could say
My faith was one arm's length away
From any flame that ever felt too warm
Asked for matches, but I recieved
A gallon full of gasoline
Now my cozy campfire days are gone
Burnin'-Nichole Nordeman
Oh dear. 5 days since my last post. We must fix this.
Not that my life is crazy-it just takes interesting turns.
Last night I went with my mom downtown. My dad does plane models for a hobby and has this monthly meeting.
So me and mom went and shopped at goodwill for 10 minutes before it closed.
I found the cutest belt and a bag to use for when I go to the beach this summer. the one I use daily-No. I don't want sand in that one. and then we found Padres stuff. So I technically have two new shirts. And a baseball cap. aha.
And then I was able to practice driving around a mostly empty parking lot for a good hour. Even practiced parking. Turns out-pretty good at it. But I dunno, it was empty.
It was funny-these two guys wanted to skateboard and like kept watching me everytime I drove in a circle around the lot and up and down the lanes.
And then we stopped by Jeck in th Box so i could ge those mini-churro thing's. omogosh love em. my sweet tooth has been aching and not eating chocalote is like torture to it. But its good for me.
And then today. See-my and a couple of my friends have not been on best terms. So they picked me up and we went to a friend's house. the couple that runs our college group. And the wife sat down with us and acted as a mediator and we took turns talking about things are bugging us and all that.
We came to an understanding and middle ground.
It was hard. I felt like my voice would break but we all got a lot from it. Lately I've felt like crying from being hurt but today I coul cry from relief. Like a weight has been lifted you know?
Other than that-I'm super-excited for tomorrow. I play cello in worship. It feels big to me because this will be the last time for who knows how long.
Next month I start teaching Children's Church (6-11 yr olds). I'm excited, but nervous. I know its gonna be fun.
And the months I'm off I'll be doubling up on doing media. Taking a break from worship team. I feel like a break and am not too excited about trying to work it out with a new mucis pastor that is coming in next month. *sigh*
Whatever.
Just have to trust God on it.
And then later I'm doing some yard work to work towards a cruise I'm going on with my college group in May. Woot!
And then a Big Daddy Weave concert.
Crazy weekend right?
Right now, I'm filling out this application for this store. ah I need a job. And to do stuff this week.
I need serious motivation.
I'm praying that I get done what i need to.
Anyways. Bed soon.
Monday, March 23, 2009
'Cause after loving you I can never be the same
Listening to: Innocence & Instinct - Red
so we are -what?- halfway through Lent right now. Almost there. Easter's just around the corner.
I don't know why I choose to do it this year, maybe it was just God pushing me and asking me to do something for him.
And seriously, Chocolate seems like this small thing. I don't think we realize how we have of it or whatever. And I usually only want it when i stress. Heh. Little did I know...
When you don't have much going on, you can over think too much about little things. And it's worse if somewhere down that road, you or someone else turns into something bigger.
Needless to say, I've been stressing big time and trying my hardest not to. Trying to calm down and not really let it show so much. *sigh*But doing Lent has been good. Because it's gotten me, for once, to lean on god more and pray first, not as a last resort. And my faith has grown in ways I never really expected. I've been able to stand by what I know is right. To say "No, this is not right and I will not compromise to the world's standards. I will not lower my standards for less than what God wants for me."
And as crap as I feel on the outside. As much as I want to rant and yell and just cry to no end, It's the also the best I've felt in a really long time.
Things are changing. Drastically. And if we don't stand for our beliefs--we'll pretty much be knocked down by everything else.
Feelings can only deceive and hurt us and lead us into dark places. But if we do the right thing, the thing that's usually hard to do, there is so much hope and promise at the end.
It doesn't makes sense to me why someone would not choose hope.
It just doesn't.
so we are -what?- halfway through Lent right now. Almost there. Easter's just around the corner.
I don't know why I choose to do it this year, maybe it was just God pushing me and asking me to do something for him.
And seriously, Chocolate seems like this small thing. I don't think we realize how we have of it or whatever. And I usually only want it when i stress. Heh. Little did I know...
When you don't have much going on, you can over think too much about little things. And it's worse if somewhere down that road, you or someone else turns into something bigger.
Needless to say, I've been stressing big time and trying my hardest not to. Trying to calm down and not really let it show so much. *sigh*But doing Lent has been good. Because it's gotten me, for once, to lean on god more and pray first, not as a last resort. And my faith has grown in ways I never really expected. I've been able to stand by what I know is right. To say "No, this is not right and I will not compromise to the world's standards. I will not lower my standards for less than what God wants for me."
And as crap as I feel on the outside. As much as I want to rant and yell and just cry to no end, It's the also the best I've felt in a really long time.
Things are changing. Drastically. And if we don't stand for our beliefs--we'll pretty much be knocked down by everything else.
Feelings can only deceive and hurt us and lead us into dark places. But if we do the right thing, the thing that's usually hard to do, there is so much hope and promise at the end.
It doesn't makes sense to me why someone would not choose hope.
It just doesn't.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
My Type is INFJ
Okay, I have written here lately...but I've been writing other things. Songs, poems, letters. And having somewhat of a writers block issue that only disappears when I'm lying in bed falling asleep.
arr.
Anyways.
Found a quiz thing that I kind of love.
Takes a while to take but whatever.
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm
Your Type is INFJ
You are:
* slightly expressed introvert
* slightly expressed intuitive personality
* moderately expressed feeling personality
* slightly expressed judging personality
(The rest of this..you google your letters and see what sites come up)
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals.
Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities.
Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on having things orderly and systematic in their outer world.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations.
They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them.
They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand.
INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex.
They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else.
This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions.
They believe that they're right.
They don't believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective.
An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not.
Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
Famous INFJs:
Nathan, prophet of Israel
Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Martin Luther King, Jr., civil rights leader, martyr
Nelson Mandela
Marg Helgaberger
Evangeline Lilly
Fictional INFJs:
Cinderella From Disney's Cinderella
Horatio From Hamlet
Kanga From Disney's Winnie The Pooh
Obiwan Kenobi From Star Wars
Peter Parker From Spiderman
Piglet From Disney's Winnie the Pooh
Princess Leia From Star Wars
Sara From CSI Las Vegas
Trinity From The Matrix
Yoda From Star Wars
The results of this quiz always make me feel really good about myself.
And we all need that sometimes.
arr.
Anyways.
Found a quiz thing that I kind of love.
Takes a while to take but whatever.
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm
Your Type is INFJ
You are:
* slightly expressed introvert
* slightly expressed intuitive personality
* moderately expressed feeling personality
* slightly expressed judging personality
(The rest of this..you google your letters and see what sites come up)
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals.
Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities.
Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on having things orderly and systematic in their outer world.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations.
They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them.
They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand.
INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex.
They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else.
This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions.
They believe that they're right.
They don't believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective.
An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not.
Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
Famous INFJs:
Nathan, prophet of Israel
Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Martin Luther King, Jr., civil rights leader, martyr
Nelson Mandela
Marg Helgaberger
Evangeline Lilly
Fictional INFJs:
Cinderella From Disney's Cinderella
Horatio From Hamlet
Kanga From Disney's Winnie The Pooh
Obiwan Kenobi From Star Wars
Peter Parker From Spiderman
Piglet From Disney's Winnie the Pooh
Princess Leia From Star Wars
Sara From CSI Las Vegas
Trinity From The Matrix
Yoda From Star Wars
The results of this quiz always make me feel really good about myself.
And we all need that sometimes.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I don't want to come down from this high.
I had an awesome weekend. although a but bittersweet now but..it's not over yet.
Was reading chapter 13 of I Kissed Dating Goodbye last night (again0 and I thought I'd shared this poem that i really liked.
A WOMAN'S QUESTION
Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life--
And a woman's wonderful love.
Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win
With the reckless dash of a boy.
You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be as true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.
You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts---
I look for a man and a king.
A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as he did on the first
And say: "It is very good."
I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheeck one day;
Will you love me then, 'mid the falling leaves
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?
Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.
I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.
If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.
Lena Lathrop
Was reading chapter 13 of I Kissed Dating Goodbye last night (again0 and I thought I'd shared this poem that i really liked.
A WOMAN'S QUESTION
Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life--
And a woman's wonderful love.
Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win
With the reckless dash of a boy.
You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be as true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.
You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts---
I look for a man and a king.
A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as he did on the first
And say: "It is very good."
I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheeck one day;
Will you love me then, 'mid the falling leaves
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?
Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.
I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.
If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.
Lena Lathrop
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Spill My Heart Out.
With as much as I blog and write, I rarely write what I mean to.
I had a friend ask me a couple weeks ago why exactly I wasn't dating. And with just a few more minutes before he had to get off the bus and me say goodbye to him for a while, I said "I'll write a blog and send it to you, k?"
I have started that blog. And that's about it.
It's not like it's hard for me to come up with the reasons. It's just hard for me to say.
Ah, story of my life.
I can do things and write fantastically about things, esp my spiritual life, but..ask me to talk about it. To open my mouth and speak..I'm a ball of nerves.
I think esp the whole dating thing because a single 19 year old girl in this world who's still a virgin is kind of..taboo. Or just plain out rare.
Or maybe it's more because it's a spiritual thing. Since Dec 07 I have seriously grown spiritually and in my relationship with God and studied his word and it's crazy how I've come.
Even crazier how much further I have to go.
I don't take dating easily or simply like some of my friends do. For me, it's big and huge and I've given my heart out way many more times than I've wanted to or needed to.
I guess I'm not dating because God asked me not to.
And when he did, I didn't see it as giving up something. I simply obeyed.
But the truth is, you never know what's sacrificial.
God asks for all of us, not just what we want to give.
So in short...I'm still trying to write that blog.
I had a friend ask me a couple weeks ago why exactly I wasn't dating. And with just a few more minutes before he had to get off the bus and me say goodbye to him for a while, I said "I'll write a blog and send it to you, k?"
I have started that blog. And that's about it.
It's not like it's hard for me to come up with the reasons. It's just hard for me to say.
Ah, story of my life.
I can do things and write fantastically about things, esp my spiritual life, but..ask me to talk about it. To open my mouth and speak..I'm a ball of nerves.
I think esp the whole dating thing because a single 19 year old girl in this world who's still a virgin is kind of..taboo. Or just plain out rare.
Or maybe it's more because it's a spiritual thing. Since Dec 07 I have seriously grown spiritually and in my relationship with God and studied his word and it's crazy how I've come.
Even crazier how much further I have to go.
I don't take dating easily or simply like some of my friends do. For me, it's big and huge and I've given my heart out way many more times than I've wanted to or needed to.
I guess I'm not dating because God asked me not to.
And when he did, I didn't see it as giving up something. I simply obeyed.
But the truth is, you never know what's sacrificial.
God asks for all of us, not just what we want to give.
So in short...I'm still trying to write that blog.
Monday, March 9, 2009
'It's amazing... and I'm scared to death.'
"It's like being in love. 'It's amazing... and I'm scared to death.'
"If you truly love someone, you're going to be pure because true love comes from God, and God tells us to remain pure. That's good enough for me."
"I think of myself as more of a lover rather than a fighter, but sometimes you have to fight for what you love."
~Jon Foreman
Yes, I've had love on the brain lately, but tonight I'm just going to share a quiz.
"If you truly love someone, you're going to be pure because true love comes from God, and God tells us to remain pure. That's good enough for me."
"I think of myself as more of a lover rather than a fighter, but sometimes you have to fight for what you love."
~Jon Foreman
Yes, I've had love on the brain lately, but tonight I'm just going to share a quiz.
I feel loved when...
The Five Love Languages
My Primary Love Language is Quality Time
| My Detailed Results: | |
|---|---|
| Quality Time: | 10 |
| Acts of Service: | 7 |
| Physical Touch: | 6 |
| Words of Affirmation: | 5 |
| Receiving Gifts: | 2 |
About this quiz
Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.
Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.
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