I'm going to finish off my recap of last week
Saturday-didn't do much other than go to a Victorian Boutique with mom and get this oh so cute plaid shirt and an adapted version of Les Miserables in french. I'm debating whether to keep it and take actually take french or give it to my friend who is directly descended from Victor Hugo.
Oh. And then there was this rotary phone that I fell in love with. Didn't get it, but, I'm in love with it for some reason.
Sunday-Woke up, showered, dressed, got to church, had a whole hour to prepare for Kids church and all I really did was write a verse on the board. Lol.
Walked around, had coffee, chatted, and got deeply emotional during the prayer service. Worship came and my old youth leader Susie came in so I went back a couple rows and stood next to her during it.
Before they let the kids out they had all the teachers for Children's Ministry come up and then had the kids come up and pray over us. It was to adorably cute.
Then me and Des went back. This weeks lesson? Bible Reading and Fasting.
I think ym favorite part was just their input-like what they thought fasting was and how crazy I was for giving up chocalote once. After church I ended up going to lunch with everyone at a burger place down the road. twas fun. Then someone droppd me at the sprinter station and of course, with 15 minutes till it comes I realize that I left my wallet on the counter there. Ugh. Lol.
Well-went home and just checked net stuff for an hour or so then me and mom left for our girls club thing at church. Stop by the Burger place and got my wallet back first.
we spent the whole time discussing our plans for the next few months.
Then waited for most of the people to leave and my mom let me drive around that building area for about ten minutes.
Stopped by the grocery store before going home-we needed milk and something else and had a craving for ice cream.
Last week was amazing. Crazy...but amazing.
i've had a lot of thoughts in my head lately but right now I'm kjust trying to focus on writing this mothers day poem.
I had it my head a week ro two ago and now i'm having the worst trouble writing it. Ughers.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Recap-ness.
Currently: Listening to Atmosphere-Abandon
Tis has been a long week.
Recap shall we?
Sunday: got up, got ready for church wearing more comfortable but sill nice clothes, went to prayer service and worship, walked out about 3 times getting ready for kids church, taught about Sanctification/Righteousness using chocolate syrup and baby powder. heh. Never did pass out the coloring pages and we spent the last ten minutes playing 4 corners and heads up 7up. Dismissed kids, got stuff together, lost voice, went to souplantation with the Pedrozas, andrea, Richard and dustin. got a ride home from Andrea (she's awesome!), and ended up taking a nap all afternoon. Woken up by mom, went to family friends house and finished my friends text for Missionetes (Yay), when mom finally gt me, we celebrated by going to Coldstone. ah the love. Went to sleep with not much of a voice.
Monday: Woke up multiple times and kept falling back asleep due to feeling crummy, finally really woke up to find I couldnt talk. Didnt do much at all that day. except get my voice back just a little and get annoyed that everything was reruns.
Tuesday: Woke up, got stuff together, packed my stuff, helped mom pack, drove up to anaheim. Went to hotel, chcked in, settled in, checked online stuff while mom figured out my cousin's next performance at Cal Baptist College was too far away. Walked down the street to see my two younger cousins and their grandma. Hung out, talked, ate dinner, left when they left to go to disneyland for the last part of the day. Went back to hotel, fell asleep while watching grey gardens. Woke up-Tom picked me up for coffee. Drove and walked a bit, talked a lot, 10:30 went back to hotel, split food with brother, read for bit, fell asleep.
Wed: woke up changed, ate breakfast, packed stuff up, put it in car, met up with cousins and aunt outside California Adventure while mom bought tickets. Went in, Justin (middle cousin-12 yrs old) didnt want to ride Tower of Terror so me and him went to Soaring Over California. Then met back up with family, went to Turtle Talk with crush, Joey (youngest-10 yrs old
) got to ask a question and my aunt got to talk to crush too. fun memories. Got split up again-Mom, Me, justin and his grandma went to Muppet Vision 3-D. Then took Justin onto the Monsters Inc ride and after we waited outside and took pictures while Mom, grandma, aunt, Joey, Karl(my brother) went on Monsters Inc. Walked across street and had lunch at denny, where dad met up with us. bought pins by cash register after and grabbed my fedora out of the car.Walked back with mom to Cali Adventure, shared a churro while we waited for rest to get off a ride. Went with Jarod (oldest cousin, 16) and a couple friends of his to California Screamin . Karl met up with us. Went from there to Maliboomer Me and Karl went over Tower of Terror. bye the time Jarod made it over, he had to levce with the school. said bye, got in line, and thanked my brother about ten million times for going with me. Got off ride, met fam in front of park and we walked to thie hotel and hung out and ate dinner. Mom got stuff from car, dad and karl started drive back home. Aunt got two extra tickets from a couple students and we went back with to disneyland and rode Pirates and Haunted Mansiona dn then ran over to Splash Mountain with Justin and Joey. Got to ride two times in a row. I rode front and those two spaced out in the back. first picture looked like my hair ate justins face, second one looked awesome.
Got a shuttle back to hotel, me and mom slept on the pull out couch.
Thurs-woke up, helped packed, said bye, and watched cousins, aunt, and their grandma drive off. me and mom found bus stop, went to the Anaheim station, and got frustrated with Metrolink after two hours of waiting andfinding out their scheadule is beyond messed up. bought amtrak tickets, went across the way and bought soup and sandwiches to take on the train. got on, te, talked, slept,got into hometwon station. Got on bus to home. got home and unloaded and just chilled, relaxed. I stayed home instead of going to college group due to be tired and still feeling sick. went to bed at 10ish while watched Ghost Town
Fri-toda. didnt do much. till 3ish. found out sad news and called a friend, talked. did dishes, clened litterbox, told my cat many times he wasnt going outside.
*Sigh*
So..yea. Crazy right? I'm so tired. And annoyed i'm still a little sick. i feel out of it (a friend said it might be not being focused-then again im trying to focuse on too much so...eh).
Anyways, goodnight all. and if you honestly read all that, I WILL give you a cookie. Even if you like across the world, i will find a way. Heh.
Tis has been a long week.
Recap shall we?
Sunday: got up, got ready for church wearing more comfortable but sill nice clothes, went to prayer service and worship, walked out about 3 times getting ready for kids church, taught about Sanctification/Righteousness using chocolate syrup and baby powder. heh. Never did pass out the coloring pages and we spent the last ten minutes playing 4 corners and heads up 7up. Dismissed kids, got stuff together, lost voice, went to souplantation with the Pedrozas, andrea, Richard and dustin. got a ride home from Andrea (she's awesome!), and ended up taking a nap all afternoon. Woken up by mom, went to family friends house and finished my friends text for Missionetes (Yay), when mom finally gt me, we celebrated by going to Coldstone. ah the love. Went to sleep with not much of a voice.
Monday: Woke up multiple times and kept falling back asleep due to feeling crummy, finally really woke up to find I couldnt talk. Didnt do much at all that day. except get my voice back just a little and get annoyed that everything was reruns.
Tuesday: Woke up, got stuff together, packed my stuff, helped mom pack, drove up to anaheim. Went to hotel, chcked in, settled in, checked online stuff while mom figured out my cousin's next performance at Cal Baptist College was too far away. Walked down the street to see my two younger cousins and their grandma. Hung out, talked, ate dinner, left when they left to go to disneyland for the last part of the day. Went back to hotel, fell asleep while watching grey gardens. Woke up-Tom picked me up for coffee. Drove and walked a bit, talked a lot, 10:30 went back to hotel, split food with brother, read for bit, fell asleep.
Wed: woke up changed, ate breakfast, packed stuff up, put it in car, met up with cousins and aunt outside California Adventure while mom bought tickets. Went in, Justin (middle cousin-12 yrs old) didnt want to ride Tower of Terror so me and him went to Soaring Over California. Then met back up with family, went to Turtle Talk with crush, Joey (youngest-10 yrs old
) got to ask a question and my aunt got to talk to crush too. fun memories. Got split up again-Mom, Me, justin and his grandma went to Muppet Vision 3-D. Then took Justin onto the Monsters Inc ride and after we waited outside and took pictures while Mom, grandma, aunt, Joey, Karl(my brother) went on Monsters Inc. Walked across street and had lunch at denny, where dad met up with us. bought pins by cash register after and grabbed my fedora out of the car.Walked back with mom to Cali Adventure, shared a churro while we waited for rest to get off a ride. Went with Jarod (oldest cousin, 16) and a couple friends of his to California Screamin . Karl met up with us. Went from there to Maliboomer Me and Karl went over Tower of Terror. bye the time Jarod made it over, he had to levce with the school. said bye, got in line, and thanked my brother about ten million times for going with me. Got off ride, met fam in front of park and we walked to thie hotel and hung out and ate dinner. Mom got stuff from car, dad and karl started drive back home. Aunt got two extra tickets from a couple students and we went back with to disneyland and rode Pirates and Haunted Mansiona dn then ran over to Splash Mountain with Justin and Joey. Got to ride two times in a row. I rode front and those two spaced out in the back. first picture looked like my hair ate justins face, second one looked awesome.
Got a shuttle back to hotel, me and mom slept on the pull out couch.
Thurs-woke up, helped packed, said bye, and watched cousins, aunt, and their grandma drive off. me and mom found bus stop, went to the Anaheim station, and got frustrated with Metrolink after two hours of waiting andfinding out their scheadule is beyond messed up. bought amtrak tickets, went across the way and bought soup and sandwiches to take on the train. got on, te, talked, slept,got into hometwon station. Got on bus to home. got home and unloaded and just chilled, relaxed. I stayed home instead of going to college group due to be tired and still feeling sick. went to bed at 10ish while watched Ghost Town
Fri-toda. didnt do much. till 3ish. found out sad news and called a friend, talked. did dishes, clened litterbox, told my cat many times he wasnt going outside.
*Sigh*
So..yea. Crazy right? I'm so tired. And annoyed i'm still a little sick. i feel out of it (a friend said it might be not being focused-then again im trying to focuse on too much so...eh).
Anyways, goodnight all. and if you honestly read all that, I WILL give you a cookie. Even if you like across the world, i will find a way. Heh.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Butterflies in your stomach are so nauseating.
Currently: sitting on a letter.
Okay, it's been in my back pocket all day, but still.
Actually watching Hairspray in a hotel room with my mom, waiting for my friend to call. Or see If Ima hang out with my cousins. Ala.
Oh-I hate California weather. I have no voice. Heh. but water is my life support. Its getting better but I'm still coughing up my lungs.
Alright walking down to the hotel my cousins are in.
Okay, it's been in my back pocket all day, but still.
Actually watching Hairspray in a hotel room with my mom, waiting for my friend to call. Or see If Ima hang out with my cousins. Ala.
Oh-I hate California weather. I have no voice. Heh. but water is my life support. Its getting better but I'm still coughing up my lungs.
Alright walking down to the hotel my cousins are in.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Fight or Flight. / The Near-Off Romance
(New song posted on my other blog: The Near-Off Romance)
I'm sure everybody has heard of it.
The whole Fight or Flight things.
Stand up to your fear or enemy or thing in your life. Or fly away and run from it.
But how present is it in our lives?
For me-I always notice it. Maybe cause for a long time I always fought. I was just about fearless as a kid. It wasn't even until my puberty has started to finish off that I was more of a teenager.
I wasn't afraid and would fight given the right reason. a good reason.
But mix in fear and I ran. And lately, I've grown up in my own. I can now sit and see my situation and know-Am I standing here fighting..or am I letting the nerves in my legs hide me again?
People have told me they've seen as someone on the run before. It's a look that can't really be described, just known by those who don't want to be where they are in their lives.
Is other alternative really only to fight?
Yes.
But not the way we think.
I fight with myself and with change a lot. and Ive fought for horribly wrong reasons. I've been the last person on the battlefield up against a army saying-we can still win.
I've been horribly wounded because of it. Maybe it was those wounds that made me want to hide-to fly-to not face things.
I always hated sitting with the medics waiting to be patched up and fully healed.
Thing is-maybe we shouldn't fly away-but we don't have to fight. We have God on our side.
Our battles--are his battles.
Yet it's so hard for us to sit there and say to him "Hey-can you help me with this?" to let go of it and just give it p to him.
Yes-letting go of anything is hard.
But would you really rather hide away in the dark listening to battle go on and on?
Or be in the front lines, completely protected? Knowing that it will be won.
I'm sure everybody has heard of it.
The whole Fight or Flight things.
Stand up to your fear or enemy or thing in your life. Or fly away and run from it.
But how present is it in our lives?
For me-I always notice it. Maybe cause for a long time I always fought. I was just about fearless as a kid. It wasn't even until my puberty has started to finish off that I was more of a teenager.
I wasn't afraid and would fight given the right reason. a good reason.
But mix in fear and I ran. And lately, I've grown up in my own. I can now sit and see my situation and know-Am I standing here fighting..or am I letting the nerves in my legs hide me again?
People have told me they've seen as someone on the run before. It's a look that can't really be described, just known by those who don't want to be where they are in their lives.
Is other alternative really only to fight?
Yes.
But not the way we think.
I fight with myself and with change a lot. and Ive fought for horribly wrong reasons. I've been the last person on the battlefield up against a army saying-we can still win.
I've been horribly wounded because of it. Maybe it was those wounds that made me want to hide-to fly-to not face things.
I always hated sitting with the medics waiting to be patched up and fully healed.
Thing is-maybe we shouldn't fly away-but we don't have to fight. We have God on our side.
Our battles--are his battles.
Yet it's so hard for us to sit there and say to him "Hey-can you help me with this?" to let go of it and just give it p to him.
Yes-letting go of anything is hard.
But would you really rather hide away in the dark listening to battle go on and on?
Or be in the front lines, completely protected? Knowing that it will be won.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
.100.
(For the record, I did this earlier at my friend's house and it wouldn't post. lol. so re-do)
But before that: weekend recap.
woke up at 6:30 Friday, took 7:30 train to Orange Station, got on another and got off at Fullerton. Got picked up, ending up watching Marley and Me and Bolt. Went to Sonic for lunch. Came back. Watched Red V Blue, got ready and went with friend and his sister to play. Found parking, went to Hooters for dinner. Had good food and sat in the corner and talked. Left, went to play (avenue Q ). Was really glad theater was dark-face was probably bet red due to my friend looking at me during certain songs and some of the nature of the play. Heh. Play ended. Potty break. went to car, read, drove back to friends house. Got ready for bed, watched an anime of friend's computer and then said goodnight, went and talked to his sister or like an hour while we fell asleep. woke up early, talked, slept a little more, got up, got dressed, ate, watched Sabrina the Teenage Witch and then an anime called Princess Tutu ( the first six episodes). Watched TV, checked online stuff, went to Sonic at 3ish and car battery died on us while we sat and ate and talked. Lucky his parents were there, drove around a while, got a little sad every time we passed the corner where the Angels guy (Nick Adenhart) got hit at and died. Went back to his place. Went Miniature Golfing (I won by one point). Went back to get my stuff, went to train station, said bye for now, got on train and listened to music on way home.
Wow. that was way longer than I expected. Right now I'm looking up verses on salvation and baptism for children's church in the morning. I'm giving them chocolate and verses to memorize and plastic Easter eggs. heh. More later.
1. Full Name: Amy E Heintz
2. Nicknames: Amykim, Kimamy, lovay, fluffy, weirdo, celloist, amy alligo, ...
3. Birthday: feb 23
4. Place Of Birth: SoCal
5. Zodiac Sign: Pisces
6. Male Or Female: Female
7. Year: Freshman in College
8. School: Mira Costa
9. Occupation:College Student/ babystter/Cellist
10. Residence: SoCal
11. MSN Screen Name: {Amy}
Appearance…
12. Hair Colour: Dark dark dark brown with light brown and reds mixed throughout
13. Hair Length: long
14. Eye Colour: Hazel
15. Weight: ---
16. Height: 5'7''
17. Braces?: No
18. Glasses?: Not since ninth grade
19. Piercings?: 3 in my left ear, 2 in my right.
20. Tattoos? : Not yet
21. Righty or Lefty: Right
Your “Firsts”…
22. First best friend: Jesus
23. First Award: Some school thing. Either for being a good kid or reading
24. First Sport: Colorguard
25. First Pet: Tank
26. First Real Holiday: Oregon this past Christmas
27. First Concert: Jump 5 when I was 13
Favourite
29. Movie: Dude. I like a lot. too long of a list
30. TV programme: Gilmore Girls, Pushing Daisies, Joan Of Arcadia, Scrubs, Lost, House, How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang, Jon and Kate, Who's Line Is It Anyway?
31. Colour: amethyst
32. Rapper: ew.
33. Band: Switchfoot/Jon Foreman/Fiction Family
34. Song Right Now: Chant for solo cello-John Tavener
35. Friends: all of them
36. Sweet: Midnight milky way, dark chocalote godiva truffles
37. Sport To Play: Bowling, Mini Golf
38. Restaurant: ...
39. Favourite brand: non descript ones
40. Store: Walgreens
41. School Subject:n/a
42. Animal: My cat.
43. Book: again. too many. long list.
44. Magazine: n/a
45. Shoes: No shoes.=)
Currently
46. Feeling: Sleepy. Excited.
47. Single or Taken: single
48. Have A Crush: heh. You could say that
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: pepsi
51. Typing: words.
52. Online: all my im's
53. Listening To: Legacy-Nichole Nordeman
54. Thinking About: my weekend.
55. Wanting To: have this done and finished.
56. Watching: nothing.
Your Future
58. Want Kids?: Heck yea
59. Want To Be Married?: At the right time with the right guy.
60. Careers In Mind: Singer, songwriter, cellist, writer, DJ, acountant,..
61. Where Do You Want To Live: in my heart. i want to travel a lot.
62. Car: Truck.
Which Is Better For Opposite Sex…
63. Hair Colour: Blondes and Reheads turn me off 99% of the time.
64. Hair length: Long enoughfor me to run my fingers through
65. Eye Colour: I'm a sucker for random colors like hazel or auburn.
66. Winks Or Blows Kisses: Either
67. Cute Or Sexy: Cute
68. Lips Or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs Or Kisses: Hugs
70. Short Or Tall: Taller than me
71. Easygoing Or Serious: easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic
73. Fatty or Skinny: Medium
74. Sensitive or Loud: Both at appropiate times
75. Sweet or Caring: Caring
76. Trouble Maker Or Hesitant One: Leaning towards hesitant...
Have You Ever…
77. Kissed A Stranger: no
78. Had Alcohol: Yup
79. Smoked: ew no
80. Ran Away From Home: thought about it, but no
81. Broken A Bone: nope.
82. Got An X-Ray: many a time.
84. Smiled At Someone You Didn't Know: Constantly
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: Sadly.=(
86. Kicked Someone: Plenty.
87. Cried When Someone Died: Sadly.
88. Cried At School: yup
Do You Believe In…
89. God: Yup.
90. Miracles: definitely
91. Love At First Sight: Kind of. In a sense. Its hard to explain
92. Ghosts: no
93. Aliens: no.
94. Soul Mates: Yes.
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes
97. Angels: Most definintly
98. Kissing On The First Date: If you've known each othe lng enough before hand
99. Horoscopes: no.
Answer Truthfully...
100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have?
Uhm. Kind of. It's hard but I'm honestly trying to do the best and right thing.
(edited at 7 pm Monday)
But before that: weekend recap.
woke up at 6:30 Friday, took 7:30 train to Orange Station, got on another and got off at Fullerton. Got picked up, ending up watching Marley and Me and Bolt. Went to Sonic for lunch. Came back. Watched Red V Blue, got ready and went with friend and his sister to play. Found parking, went to Hooters for dinner. Had good food and sat in the corner and talked. Left, went to play (avenue Q ). Was really glad theater was dark-face was probably bet red due to my friend looking at me during certain songs and some of the nature of the play. Heh. Play ended. Potty break. went to car, read, drove back to friends house. Got ready for bed, watched an anime of friend's computer and then said goodnight, went and talked to his sister or like an hour while we fell asleep. woke up early, talked, slept a little more, got up, got dressed, ate, watched Sabrina the Teenage Witch and then an anime called Princess Tutu ( the first six episodes). Watched TV, checked online stuff, went to Sonic at 3ish and car battery died on us while we sat and ate and talked. Lucky his parents were there, drove around a while, got a little sad every time we passed the corner where the Angels guy (Nick Adenhart) got hit at and died. Went back to his place. Went Miniature Golfing (I won by one point). Went back to get my stuff, went to train station, said bye for now, got on train and listened to music on way home.
Wow. that was way longer than I expected. Right now I'm looking up verses on salvation and baptism for children's church in the morning. I'm giving them chocolate and verses to memorize and plastic Easter eggs. heh. More later.
1. Full Name: Amy E Heintz
2. Nicknames: Amykim, Kimamy, lovay, fluffy, weirdo, celloist, amy alligo, ...
3. Birthday: feb 23
4. Place Of Birth: SoCal
5. Zodiac Sign: Pisces
6. Male Or Female: Female
7. Year: Freshman in College
8. School: Mira Costa
9. Occupation:College Student/ babystter/Cellist
10. Residence: SoCal
11. MSN Screen Name: {Amy}
Appearance…
12. Hair Colour: Dark dark dark brown with light brown and reds mixed throughout
13. Hair Length: long
14. Eye Colour: Hazel
15. Weight: ---
16. Height: 5'7''
17. Braces?: No
18. Glasses?: Not since ninth grade
19. Piercings?: 3 in my left ear, 2 in my right.
20. Tattoos? : Not yet
21. Righty or Lefty: Right
Your “Firsts”…
22. First best friend: Jesus
23. First Award: Some school thing. Either for being a good kid or reading
24. First Sport: Colorguard
25. First Pet: Tank
26. First Real Holiday: Oregon this past Christmas
27. First Concert: Jump 5 when I was 13
Favourite
29. Movie: Dude. I like a lot. too long of a list
30. TV programme: Gilmore Girls, Pushing Daisies, Joan Of Arcadia, Scrubs, Lost, House, How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang, Jon and Kate, Who's Line Is It Anyway?
31. Colour: amethyst
32. Rapper: ew.
33. Band: Switchfoot/Jon Foreman/Fiction Family
34. Song Right Now: Chant for solo cello-John Tavener
35. Friends: all of them
36. Sweet: Midnight milky way, dark chocalote godiva truffles
37. Sport To Play: Bowling, Mini Golf
38. Restaurant: ...
39. Favourite brand: non descript ones
40. Store: Walgreens
41. School Subject:n/a
42. Animal: My cat.
43. Book: again. too many. long list.
44. Magazine: n/a
45. Shoes: No shoes.=)
Currently
46. Feeling: Sleepy. Excited.
47. Single or Taken: single
48. Have A Crush: heh. You could say that
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: pepsi
51. Typing: words.
52. Online: all my im's
53. Listening To: Legacy-Nichole Nordeman
54. Thinking About: my weekend.
55. Wanting To: have this done and finished.
56. Watching: nothing.
Your Future
58. Want Kids?: Heck yea
59. Want To Be Married?: At the right time with the right guy.
60. Careers In Mind: Singer, songwriter, cellist, writer, DJ, acountant,..
61. Where Do You Want To Live: in my heart. i want to travel a lot.
62. Car: Truck.
Which Is Better For Opposite Sex…
63. Hair Colour: Blondes and Reheads turn me off 99% of the time.
64. Hair length: Long enoughfor me to run my fingers through
65. Eye Colour: I'm a sucker for random colors like hazel or auburn.
66. Winks Or Blows Kisses: Either
67. Cute Or Sexy: Cute
68. Lips Or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs Or Kisses: Hugs
70. Short Or Tall: Taller than me
71. Easygoing Or Serious: easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic
73. Fatty or Skinny: Medium
74. Sensitive or Loud: Both at appropiate times
75. Sweet or Caring: Caring
76. Trouble Maker Or Hesitant One: Leaning towards hesitant...
Have You Ever…
77. Kissed A Stranger: no
78. Had Alcohol: Yup
79. Smoked: ew no
80. Ran Away From Home: thought about it, but no
81. Broken A Bone: nope.
82. Got An X-Ray: many a time.
84. Smiled At Someone You Didn't Know: Constantly
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: Sadly.=(
86. Kicked Someone: Plenty.
87. Cried When Someone Died: Sadly.
88. Cried At School: yup
Do You Believe In…
89. God: Yup.
90. Miracles: definitely
91. Love At First Sight: Kind of. In a sense. Its hard to explain
92. Ghosts: no
93. Aliens: no.
94. Soul Mates: Yes.
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes
97. Angels: Most definintly
98. Kissing On The First Date: If you've known each othe lng enough before hand
99. Horoscopes: no.
Answer Truthfully...
100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have?
Uhm. Kind of. It's hard but I'm honestly trying to do the best and right thing.
(edited at 7 pm Monday)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
"What is faith?"
"Faith is believing in what you can't see and listening to what you can't hear"
Would you believe me if I said a twelve-year old said that? I know, it blew my mind too. I know some pretty amazing kids in my church.
And this one-I hang with her often. She's like a little sister almost. I just ran back to look in my won Friends book and see what I had written on that lesson of Battle Stations on Faith as a 12 yr old.
Not nearly as good- "believing in something, having trust".
Knowing the kids I know-it's hard for me to know and remember I was the smart one when I was their age.
The thing-as good as my own relationship with God may be-as blessed as I am with opportunities and the things god tells me-my faith is in crisis a lot.
I am visual. I need to do, see, hear things-I wouldv'e been disciple number one had I been born in the time Jesus was on earth.
But I'm not, so I have to remind myself a lot of the very few times I've seen and heard miraculous things.
And lately it's from kids.
I love it. It breaks my heart but I love it-They have such faith.
but it breaks my heart to know I had that kind of faith and lost it as I grew up-and I was one of those kids who grew up and matured faster-who could tell you the answer but not why or how I got it-I just knew.
That's always been me.
Maybe that's why kids like me. I let them be kids-I want them to be kids as much as they can. Yes things like maturity and responsibility are all that adult stuff are good but...it's tiring.
I wish I could be a kid again.
I wish I had that faith again.
Would you believe me if I said a twelve-year old said that? I know, it blew my mind too. I know some pretty amazing kids in my church.
And this one-I hang with her often. She's like a little sister almost. I just ran back to look in my won Friends book and see what I had written on that lesson of Battle Stations on Faith as a 12 yr old.
Not nearly as good- "believing in something, having trust".
Knowing the kids I know-it's hard for me to know and remember I was the smart one when I was their age.
The thing-as good as my own relationship with God may be-as blessed as I am with opportunities and the things god tells me-my faith is in crisis a lot.
I am visual. I need to do, see, hear things-I wouldv'e been disciple number one had I been born in the time Jesus was on earth.
But I'm not, so I have to remind myself a lot of the very few times I've seen and heard miraculous things.
And lately it's from kids.
I love it. It breaks my heart but I love it-They have such faith.
but it breaks my heart to know I had that kind of faith and lost it as I grew up-and I was one of those kids who grew up and matured faster-who could tell you the answer but not why or how I got it-I just knew.
That's always been me.
Maybe that's why kids like me. I let them be kids-I want them to be kids as much as they can. Yes things like maturity and responsibility are all that adult stuff are good but...it's tiring.
I wish I could be a kid again.
I wish I had that faith again.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Proverbs 22:6
Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. Proverbs 22:6
I'm beyond tired and should be in bed considering I have to clean my garage and babysit tomorrow but I had to write.
I taught Children's Church for the first time today. 6-11 year olds. It was...so great. I talked about Salvation and took questions, listened to little cute stories, heard how excited these kids were about Easter. Granted, next will be better. i'm already thinking of bringing a small treat and/or a game.
I love kids. They bring me back to my spiritual roots. I can have a crazy bad day but let me think of how one kid wants to hug me every time they see me-and I am beyond blessed.
I can't wait till next week. I love how my life is right now. I love God. I am so so so grateful and thankful.
My day did not end on the best note. I have weird feelings about some stuff that was said (mostly stuff I said), but it started great.
I'm beyond tired and should be in bed considering I have to clean my garage and babysit tomorrow but I had to write.
I taught Children's Church for the first time today. 6-11 year olds. It was...so great. I talked about Salvation and took questions, listened to little cute stories, heard how excited these kids were about Easter. Granted, next will be better. i'm already thinking of bringing a small treat and/or a game.
I love kids. They bring me back to my spiritual roots. I can have a crazy bad day but let me think of how one kid wants to hug me every time they see me-and I am beyond blessed.
I can't wait till next week. I love how my life is right now. I love God. I am so so so grateful and thankful.
My day did not end on the best note. I have weird feelings about some stuff that was said (mostly stuff I said), but it started great.
Friday, April 3, 2009
I want
This: http://www.musicroom.com/se/ID_No/010887/details.html
Sheet music for this solo cello piece by John Tavener called "Chant". The audio is hiding online but I have it on CD and its beyond beautiful. and only frickin 12 dollars. eep.
and these: http://tomsshoes.com/ProductDetails.aspx?CategoryID=7&productID=248
I love these boots. I am in love with them . I would wear them every single day. I don't care if it takes me five minute more to get ready. I can skip out on hair. It doesn't do what I want anyways. *sigh*
But really? $98? I'm not one of those girls whose is all about shoes and guys and while, yes I have a pair or two or shoes that I dont wear often, I love my sandals and my boots. Heh.
I need to type up my resume and then finish up all the job applications I've been collecting and bookmarking tomorrow.
babysitting Saturday.
Teaching Children's church Sunday.
College group Thurs.
And Friday seeing Tom.
Eeep.
Sheet music for this solo cello piece by John Tavener called "Chant". The audio is hiding online but I have it on CD and its beyond beautiful. and only frickin 12 dollars. eep.
and these: http://tomsshoes.com/ProductDetails.aspx?CategoryID=7&productID=248
I love these boots. I am in love with them . I would wear them every single day. I don't care if it takes me five minute more to get ready. I can skip out on hair. It doesn't do what I want anyways. *sigh*
But really? $98? I'm not one of those girls whose is all about shoes and guys and while, yes I have a pair or two or shoes that I dont wear often, I love my sandals and my boots. Heh.
I need to type up my resume and then finish up all the job applications I've been collecting and bookmarking tomorrow.
babysitting Saturday.
Teaching Children's church Sunday.
College group Thurs.
And Friday seeing Tom.
Eeep.
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